How overwhelmed is your life, actually?

By the time my real work shows up on the calendar, the energy that was supposed to go to it has already been spent on admin and putting out fires.

I look more put-together to other people than I feel on the inside. Most of them have no idea how close I am to wanting out.

I'm not actually behind. But I feel behind every single day because the list resets faster than I can finish it.

The version of me my family sees most is the one looking at a screen, half-listening.

My closest relationships are paying for my disorganization. Things I should have remembered, calls I should have made, that I never did.

I'm worried I'm modeling overwhelm to the people in my life, and they're going to inherit the same chaos I grew up trying to escape.

The thing I'm actually good at, the thing I started with, is getting smaller every year because admin is eating it.

I used to think more income would fix this feeling. Lately I think I'd feel exactly this stressed at twice the revenue.

I want this to be different. I just don't know where to start, and I don't trust most of the people offering to fix it.